Category Archives: Health

PTSD and Cognitive – Intelligence Impairment

U.S. Military - Dog Tags ... U.S. Military Sui...
U.S. Military – Dog Tags … U.S. Military Suicides in 2012: 155 Days, 154 Dead (June 8, 2012) …item 2.. flaws still plague the handling of PTSD (14:58 EST, 8 March 2013) … (Photo credit: marsmet511)
Regions of the brain affected by PTSD and stress.
Regions of the brain affected by PTSD and stress. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Having Post Traumatic Stress Disorder does not mean you are broken.

I was given a great gift yesterday… my life timeline, which I had never seen (which was updated every PTSD therapy session) based on what came out of my mouth… experientially. My family tree (blood family and former “secret” family) and how they intertwine…

I have eight different scales of IQ testing and two scales of personality testing… Let me make this clear before you read further… in general, I don’t like standardized testing because it doesn’t tell you the whole story about a person. I’m a firm believer that atmospheric, cultural experience, life experience and education define who you are and your potential.

In my case, I’ve been suffering a bit of demonstrable cognitive difficulty for about five years. And… having never been told, (which I can assume is part of the PTSD therapy), I now see that everything “standardized” about me has remained fairly static throughout my adult life. My cognitive impairment is not due to a loss of brain function… but rather, “interference” from within. perceived threats. hyper-vigilance about my surroundings. space invaders. leeches.

With what I just stated about my opinion of standardized testing… I’ve never been under 90th percentile on any standardized test and primarily 99th percentile to be more specific. In general, I don’t advertise that, because, these numbers can influence others and cause difficulty in certain situations, specifically social. I’ve actually always tried to keep these numbers locked away. But I am what I am.

First… I’ll expose what’s inside my head, in the absence of the stress disorder. This is only representative of brain function and not personality. I’m afraid you’ll have to wait for the juicy personality abstracts. No worries… it’ll be worth my weight.

My IQ is 133; 98.61 percentile, however, under the influence of triggers and stressors from PTSD there is a dramatic decrease. For example, my 90-100th percentile math skills are reduced to 60th percentile. My visual / spacial percentile goes from 90-100 percentile down to 40-50 percentile. My linguistic percentile (my greatest strength) again drops from 90-100 percentile to 40-50 percentile. My logical percentile drops from 90-100 percentile down to 50-60 percentile.

It’s been proven that my baseline number(s) and percentile(s) is still where it was before, but that’s not the way my brain functions when tasked with stress. Not with PTSD.

Most people can only read as fast as they can talk… as that is what they are doing as they read text of any kind. I was always a fast reader… by the time I was 25 I was reading up to 1300 words a minute with better than acceptable comprehension. I learned to read in chunks and shape (math) and thus I could read faster than anyone could speak. In recent years (4-5), you might get me to read a page or two at 1000 words a minute but with no recollection of what I had just read. It got to the point where I stopped reading books and trade paperbacks. I had no focus… no attention. no interest. disinterest. I was only reading as fast as I could talk… if I could stay focused and attentive.

As an example of what my PTSD therapy has done for me… I have completely read and comprehend two full books… cover to cover in the last 30 days. I haven’t read or focused on two books prior to this for at least five years. Eva knew exactly when to tell me to read.

My brain is coming back to me. The fog is lifting… the ground stop can’t be far behind.

I’m a precision processor. I am able to whittle even the most complex task or problem to understandable component parts. Because I think in numbers. none of that has to do with emotion. My life is a pile of numbers. It’s second nature for me to cut to the middle of an issue and uncover fast solutions to problems while other people get lost in detail and translation.

Since… I am labeled a precision processor, anything that involves numbers is a piece of cake for me. Let’s make that chocolate cake… mmmm. Chocolate itself is better than sex.

This is me in the absence of PTSD:

I am resourceful.
I am detail oriented.
I am highly efficient and economical…

I am lightning fast with responses.
I think in numbers.
I am experimental.

I am an innovator
I’m a writa, not a fighta.
I convey my ideas by means other than verbal.

I write, therefore, I am.

My logic abilities can outweigh reasoning when necessary. The distinct disadvantage to this is everybody calls marc when da puter breaks. what’s wrong? how do I fix it? how do I always find a way to recover lost data? don’t ask the men in black or how they took me to work.

Here’s my predicament. I don’t want to do what I used to do. I do what I have to do to survive, but, because of the way my brain processes data, any career my mind is suited for I have no interest in. I don’t want to be a scientist… ok I think in numbers but I don’t want to be a mathematician. accountant? no fucking way. Data analyst? I am the epitome of anal, but no thank you. Astronomer? uh huh… no. I am not a fucking physicist.

I think I might be able to retain the the ability to say “I am the architect”, but, but, but…

what do I do now???

If you think this was a little long winded… wait until my personality evaluation. Can you hear me? I think in my personality analysis is where I’m going to find my path… my new path.

This entire post was written while under the influence of cannabis.

Insurers Aren’t Just Giving Out Rebate Checks Because Of Obamacare — They’re Lowering Premiums, Too | ThinkProgress

English: President Barack Obama's signature on...
English: President Barack Obama’s signature on the health insurance reform bill at the White House, March 23, 2010. The President signed the bill with 22 different pens. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Americans who bought individual health plans in 2012 saved $2.1 billion thanks to Obamacare consumer protections that limit how much insurers can profit off of Americans’ premiums, according to a new study by the Kaiser Family Foundation (KFF). The vast majority of those savings stem from individual health plan providerslowering the premiums they charge Americans in an effort to comply with the reform law.

The Kaiser study comes shortly after several major California insurers announced that they would have to pay back $36 million to small businesses and their employees after charging them too much. Obamacare mandates that insurers on the individual market spend at least 80 percent of the premiums they charge on actual medical services, or reimburse the amount they overspent to their customers.

Insurers Aren’t Just Giving Out Rebate Checks Because Of Obamacare — They’re Lowering Premiums, Too | ThinkProgress.

Leading neuroscientist: Religious fundamentalism may be a ‘mental illness’ that can be ‘cured’ | The Raw Story

Leading neuroscientist: Religious fundamentalism may be a ‘mental illness’ that can be ‘cured’ | The Raw Story.

“One of the surprises may be to see people with certain beliefs as people who can be treated,” she explained, according to The Times of London. “Somebody who has for example become radicalised to a cult ideology – we might stop seeing that as a personal choice that they have chosen as a result of pure free will and may start treating it as some kind of mental disturbance.”

English: Jericho House Long stay care for adul...
English: Jericho House Long stay care for adults with mental illness and /or alcohol dependence (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

“I am not just talking about the obvious candidates like radical Islam or some of the more extreme cults,” she explained. “I am talking about things like the belief that it is OK to beat your children. These beliefs are very harmful but are not normally categorized as mental illness.”


Living in the nuclear wasteland of Las Vegas, you get used to having to find clean water. While the local water authority tells us how safe our water is, the fact remains the particulates far exceed federal standards… and thus if you fill a glass of water and let it evaporate you will be surprised at the color of the remaining sediment… orange. If you leave just enough water at the bottom… maybe a teaspoon and smell it, it may knock you out with nastiness.

As far as drinking I have moved forward to distillation of water. The result is 0ppm water. I then re-mineralize the water for taste. Out of the tap I average about 550ppm checked with my truncheon meter.

For horticulture it’s incredibly important to start out with clean water. Each variety of plant has limits to the amount of particulates it can uptake. If one plant will allow 800ppm before it chokes… and tap water is used, I can only add 250ppm of nutrient for the plant. The plant doesn’t care if the 800ppm is nutrient and/or inert or possibly toxic parts. By reducing the baseline to 0ppm (pure water) I can add nutrient to the full 800ppm… resulting in happier and greener plants producing (and fruiting) significantly better than if fed or watered by the tap.

Regulating the use of plastics really isn’t an option… or is it? Don’t we have too much regulation to begin with? Maybe not.

I stopped buying bottled water less than a year ago. I ride a motorcycle and it started getting more and more difficult to purchase multiple cases of water and since I’ve made the switch I’ve fallen in love.

Water is stored in GLASS BOTTLES!!! Imagine that.

And in case you think it’s any cleaner than your local tap water (hint: don’t count on it!), read this.

A Scary Fact About Your Food That Will Have You Running For The Farmers’ Market | MoveOn.Org

A Scary Fact About Your Food That Will Have You Running For The Farmers’ Market

Polls have shown that over 90% of Americans want Genetically Modified Organisms (GMO’s) to be labeled. Yeah, that’s right. Over 90%! Polls almost never yield numbers like that. So what’s the holdup, Washington?

via A Scary Fact About Your Food That Will Have You Running For The Farmers’ Market | MoveOn.Org.

This Is Why You’re Fat: The 2012 Farm Bill And The Real Obesity Lobby


Nearly half of all Americans will be obese by 2030, researchers reported at the Center for Disease Control and Prevention’s Weight of the Nation conference in Washington earlier this month. 42 percent of us are projected to be obese, placing a huge strain on our already compromised health care system. Brian Fung at The Atlantic points out that the healthcare costs of obesity — $550 billion over the next two decades — is more than the U.S. Department of Defense asked for in its fiscal year 2013 budget.

There are a lot of reasons — chemical, psychological, environmental — for why people are obese. But explaining societal obesity means looking at what the food system is providing for us to eat — and how government policies might promote certain foods over others. read more…

This Is Why You’re Fat: The 2012 Farm Bill And The Real Obesity Lobby.

Decayed Meat Treated With Carbon Monoxide To Make It Look Fresh At The Grocery — Health & Wellness —

Decayed Meat Treated With Carbon Monoxide To Make It Look Fresh At The Grocery

via Decayed Meat Treated With Carbon Monoxide To Make It Look Fresh At The Grocery — Health & Wellness —

Most meat eaters may be unaware that more than 70% of all beef and chicken in the United States, Canada and other countries is being treated with poisonous carbon monoxide gas. It can make seriously decayed meat look fresh for weeks. The meat industry continues to allow this toxic gas injection into many of the meat products people consume on a daily basis. The question is, how many people have become ill by this chemically altered meat that is being sold to families all over the world?